Coronation of the Butterfly

Understanding,
the shunned bastard child of Doubt,
yields first fruit.
Long tread paths
lead to a homecoming
and after tribulations,
the self anoints self with light.

Festival of Orgone: Opening Into Aether

Happy Summer Solstice and Welcome to the Festival of Orgone!  

The Summer Solstice is the longest day of the year.  I can personally attest to that this year because of the amazing lack of sleep I've had the past few days.  There is just too much 'information' in the air.  I've been sleeping approximately 4-5 hours each night and normally I would suffer a severe detriment.  This week, however, I feel bouncy and energized.    

The Solstice, celebrated as the Pagan midsummer sabbat of Litha, is considered the turning point of the Wheel of the Year.  After today the light of the sun grows dimmer, inching slowly towards the longest night of the year, the Winter Solstice.  This year, for the Northern Hemisphere, the Summer Solstice occurs June 20th 11:09pm (U. S. Eastern) / 23:09 (GMC).

I will be called a madman because we do not understand what is happening.

Sometimes you get really far out on the tree limb and you aren't sure if it is going to support your weight.  I've been doing a lot of that for the past two years more out of necessity than anything else.  It was either take some chances or wither to death slowly in the life I was leading.  If I am crazy, I'd rather be honest about what is in my heart than cover it up with some fabrication:

I have enormous scary thoughts that threaten to swallow myself and others.

I see people as minefields and make it my job to see through them because I have trust and control issues and am very easily damaged by the wayward words of others.  

I'm afraid of large crowds because it is easy for me to lose my sense of self and therefore lose control of the beast I call "me".