Sunday, December 21, 2014

Dream Diary 122114: The Show Police

I am in a large corporate office building. All the walls are white. We are near the front of the building which has large floor to ceiling windows. Everywhere there are men and women who are dressed head to toe in solid black costumes. The costumes are somewhere between a Las Vegas show and an Icecapades show in style. Each person wears a headdress that covers the sides of their face with a decorative glittering silver snowflake and swirl pattern. The women's costumes cover the entire bodies except for the small oval of their faces and have cape like elements underneath their arms. These people are the internal police for the corporation in this building.

There is a job culling occurring. Most of the staff have been shunted into a large meeting space for a “reeducation meeting”. The “show police” have formed a line and are slowly pushing those who are being fired out of the building. The head of the company comes out from behind and stands at the center of the line as the last person is forced outside. Outside it is raining and overcast. No one seems to understand why any of this is happening. The entire process seems rather underhanded and fascist.

I tell some of the others I am with to come with me so we can get out of there. We are in a car driving around the backside of the building. Dramatic changes have already begun. The road behind the building they've already begun repaving. It is an arcing curve that goes down behind the building and its construction is that of a concrete trench. The corporation has begun filling it in, but it is only partially complete. We crash into the fill, but it has not hardened yet so it is soft and does not damage the car. We try to back out, but some others were following us and we have to wait for them to get out of the way. They are driving strange machines that look like complex red backhoes.

Now I am in an office with the head of the corporation. The interior is the same as before – all white. I give an impassioned speech about the people that have been let go and how they worked hard for this company that is now just tossing them out like trash. The head of the corporation agrees with me and relents. I am unsure if he is welcoming the people back, but he is certainly agreeing to something. There are scientists within the room.  They are wearing white lab coats.  They are removing dead corn stalks from a testing bed. The stalks have been dead for some time.

I wake.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Dream Diary 062114: Madonna, Memories, and the Halloween Tree

I am in a theatre with lots of people. Madonna is there.  As she is leaving she kind of makes fun of me for actions I took when I was a fan of hers. I eat a weird pie that is mostly re-fried beans. Nacho pie?  I talk to a lady that says she and another couple hang out with Madonna regularly. The woman is a strange turtle lady with a weird flat neck thing.  I rub her neck thing.

Night at the house. Young friends. College? It is an old friend's house. I look outside. One of his dogs has found a way through the backyard fence and has run out.  It is harassing other neighborhood dogs.  I go to tell my friend about his dog, but we talk about weed instead. He says he has stopped smoking completely. I tell him I am not chronic anymore just occasionally. We recount old times.

I have a memory of following behind a pizza delivery guy wearing a backwards ball cap. His car is a convertible.  A police car comes over the hillside with lights flaring.  The pizza guy is on the wrong side of the road and faces off with cop's car. The cop passes. The pizza guy's hat flies out and away. He stops to find it.  We stop our car to tell him where we saw it land.  He is blonde with short buzzed hair.  Back at the house, everyone is exploring the basement. I miss the tour.

An old boyfriend is soaking in a bathtub. I run outside to decorate the Halloween tree and put out "take one" signs for the toys and candies hanging there.  There are little skeleton signs that say take one and lots of skull designs. Most everything glows. The house is wrapped in black plastic. When I go back inside he is under the water face down. Drowned?  Meditating?

I wake.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Dream Diary 121714: Big Snow and the Invisible Dog Thief

I am moving through a space that is equal parts small city and large map – of a gaming world? I am speaking to someone out of view and to my left and behind me. We are discussing the NPC's that his character killed. One was named Uto? Zuto? His body lies just off a small island on the map. There is a reason that we must commemorate the dead. That same island has something to do with fiction writing. A new method emerges concerning the completion of stories. It has something to do with an author taking a story to a particular point and passing it to another author. There is a feeling that the rotations are limited? Each author only writes half the story and passes it on to the next to complete the fiction?

I am standing outside an entryway to a hotel? There has been a snowstorm recently. The snow is partly melted and icy. It is very cold. We can see our breath. The entrance doors are large wooden doors with open slits at the bottom. I tell the attendant on the other side (an older man with an indian accent) that I am waiting for my old friend to arrive. He has been delayed on the freeway because of the weather.

The attendant passes a small receipt stapled to a larger set of papers through the slit and asks me to sign it. The receipt looks like one from a small mom and pop restaurant. I have trouble figuring out where to sign, there are multiple lines for such. From the noise coming through the slit, he sounds very busy. I realize that this is for some form of room reservation. I am not getting a room, but I sign anyway as I just want to get in out of the cold and he is too distracted. I am part of the convention that is happening here, I just don't want a room. I figure that we can work it out once I am inside.

There is an entry hallway inside the hotel that faces a large set of windows. The snow is falling. It looks beautiful. I can see individual flakes. They are intricate and as large as cookies. The flakes are piling upon themselves before they hit the ground, creating strange birdlike shapes. The snow keeps changing into a light rain and back again. There are many people waiting in this hallway area with their luggage. An old friend is going up to her room. I tell her that I will see her later, but that I must wait for my other friend to arrive. I can feel the cold through the windows.

I am in a medium sized room that has lots of light colored wood in it. There are three doors leading out from the area: one is a double door frame with no doors with a set of stairs leading down, the other is a regular door frame with no door, the last is another door frame with no door. There is a large pit? In the center of the room. I am setting up a store front with a lass case and lots of items. There is a feeling of Wicca / Magick about the event. I feel anxious about getting everything set up in time.

There is a large group setting up across from me at the other end of the room. There is a dark curly haired woman, older and slender. She is their leader? There is a younger blonde woman with long hair, also slender. There is a younger man to one side who is standing in a doorway. He has dark curly hair and stubble? Beard? He is the son of the older woman? There is also an older male who smiles a lot. He has stubble and dark hair. I feel he may be in a relationship with the older woman, but is not the younger man's father.

They are having trouble with their set up. There are several sculptural pieces that will not be finished for two days that are part of the display. By then, the show will be over. I move to face the display. I ask if there is a drawing of how the set up is supposed to look when finished.  I offer that, following the drawing, they might set up everything in the positions where it is supposed to be minus the sculptural portions that will be missing. The young boy from my left and behind me says that he does not work that way indicating that there is no drawing.

When I move back over to my area, I notice that my wallet is missing. A large hound dog? great dane? is walking off with it towards the door frame where the boy had been standing. The dog had been invisible until I realized that my wallet was missing. I stop the dog and get my wallet back. I recognize that the dog belongs to hotel management and file a complaint. This is the second time this has happened. When I return, the other group are hanging out at one end of my area.

I wake.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Dream Diary 102313 - 111113: Tzadkiel, a Candle, Spiders, and Suspended Animation


There is a slender bearded man dressed in flowing a purple toga.  His dress is very ancient Greek in style.  He wears gold accessories and his hair and beard are dark red and long. He has several faerie-like attendants.  He walks through a crowded party.  Everyone else there stands still like statues.  Nearby there is a large decorative water fountain.  He is Tzadkiel?  Bacchus?  Dionysus?  Raphael?


A woman that I worked with previously and disliked is my roommate.  We only have bunk beds to sleep in.  I am returning home.  I bring her a large white penis shaped candle.


I lift up a container.  There are spiders on its underside. They are black and poisonous, but I do not read them as black widows.


I am in a dark room shining a flashlight.  The cats are playing in the darkness.  I see the shadows of spiders.  The cats are playing with them but I cannot see where the spiders are.  I am anxious.

I am in a warehouse full with muslin canvas room separators.  I walk on the same aisle several times before I wake the Classic Star Trek cast from their suspended animation chambers.  They exit the suspension chambers through a large technological archway.  When they do wake, there are multiples of everyone: two McCoys, two Spocks, etc.  This activation also wakes many children who were in suspended animation.  They are all wearing international day costumes. There is lots of confusion and everyone who woke up is very disoriented.  Everyone is amazed at the number of people that were in the chambers.  I try to direct the large crowd to a temporary waiting space until we can figure everything out.

Upon waking the word Lornafan? Lornafin? is in my mind.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Dream Diary 101713: Light Grey Rectangle

I am amongst a group of young potheads.  I play wrestle with their "leader".  He has a girlfriend, but the energy between the two of us is very sexual.  One of the others motion him away and they step away from me to talk amongst themselves.

They confront me.  The people? everyone? the group?  think I am trying to trap them? trick them? as in turn them into the police.  I feel a strong concern for the safety of their leader.  I tell them I am not there for anything like that.  I am lonely?  just want to be friends?  I am sincere.  They relent and welcome me.

There is a younger male member of the group who lays his head in my lap and looks up at me.  We are talking as we relax and our faces get closer together.  Our kiss is as much a kiss as it is a shotgun.  I breathe in the smoke from him.  In my visual frame, the smoke is a long skinny light grey rectangle.

I wake.

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

Dream Diary 101413: Are We Fighting or are We Dancing?

Marriage.  A voice says that now we must choose:  Are we fighting or are we dancing?  An old friend is present and wearing a "Cat in the Hat" hat.  It suits her personality.  She is the reverend for the ceremony?

An old friend's mother has made a power point resume portfolio for me and made an appointment for me with some company that I do not know.  We are in a darkened house.  There are two empty recliners.  There is something in the trashcan.  I had missed the appointment and there is a young girl who is angry with me about it.  She presents me with pages of documentation where I had been spied on with out my knowledge.  According to some unknown authority, I had not been doing what I was "supposed" to be doing.

I wake.

Wednesday, December 03, 2014

From the Archives: Young Saturn

An older sharpie sketch of Saturn as a young man. Although this sketch isn't visually the same as the other sketches from the Sickles Set, I feel it deals with the same themes.  All the sketches in the set were created in the same time frame.


Saturday, November 29, 2014

Dream Diary 112914: The Infinity MIrror and Your Mama's Stick

I am in the basement of someone's house.  The room is a dark velvet burgundy color.  There are others with me: an older man with a white beard who is across from me, a middle aged woman with long light brown hair to my left whose face I cannot see, and two others who have no distinctive qualities but are present.  I cast circle to cleanse the area before we all sit.

The bearded man shares several items that he has made.  He shares a large frame with bells.  He shakes it several times.  I ask him not to as the owners of the house are asleep in the next room, their bedroom.  We can hear the couple arguing.  They are loud enough so that we can hear them through the wall.  Something is said about sprinkling a powder on to something and then she makes a disparaging comment about her husband being a homosexual.  The bearded man calls me by name and says he has brought something for me.  He shows me a shadowbox with a mirror inside a mirror inside a mirror.  When you look into it you see an infinity of reflections.  I see a tunnel of mirrors within it then it changes and I begin to see images.

Suddenly the dream is disrupted by a barrage of images.  I see police cars at night with their lights flashing and a pile of severed heads and skulls beside an old wooden table.  A man has been bringing immigrants to his home and executing them.  The man is tall with unkempt hair and a scraggly beard.  He is upstairs in the house?  He is a part of the group?

Back in the basement I am apologizing to the husband of the couple who owns the house.  I explained that I went ahead and cast the circle to get the group going.  He was okay with it.  He has long curly dark hair.  I am trying to be ameliorating as I feel we woke them up.  An old female friend is with us as we are talking.  There is someone at the house I am trying to avoid.  The serial killer?

My female friend and I exit the basement to the exterior.  I am still trying to avoid the serial killer.  I feel that we are both altered in some way, perhaps drunk.  There are a stack of wooden planks in a basket shelf on the door to the basement.  The are painted green with black writing and designs on them.  They are called something specific involving a "your mama" joke but I cannot remember the exact words.  Your Mama's asskickin stick?  The husband shows up again outside but he has short hair now and a beard.  I'm a little annoyed at his presence but he is cute.  He is wearing a barbershop quartet hat.  I think he is flirting with me.

I wake

NOTE:  There is a small section of the dream that was lost in recollection between viewing the infinity mirror and exiting the basement.  The barrage of images was very disruptive to the flow of the dream.  It was almost as if the dream lost coherence or was disrupted by an outside signal.  As the regular flow returned, a portion of the dream was occluded.