Emissaries IV: The Catepillar

On the road to awareness,
he asks a single question.

I will be called a madman because we do not understand what is happening.

Sometimes you get really far out on the tree limb and you aren't sure if it is going to support your weight.  I've been doing a lot of that for the past two years more out of necessity than anything else.  It was either take some chances or wither to death slowly in the life I was leading.  If I am crazy, I'd rather be honest about what is in my heart than cover it up with some fabrication:

I have enormous scary thoughts that threaten to swallow myself and others.

I see people as minefields and make it my job to see through them because I have trust and control issues and am very easily damaged by the wayward words of others.  

I'm afraid of large crowds because it is easy for me to lose my sense of self and therefore lose control of the beast I call "me".

The Whole of My Heurt

The Heart is a wound that never stops bleeding,
but it is this very wound that keeps us alive.

Entry into Netzach

As Neptune moves into Pisces today for the next fourteen years, I present this piece to you.  A great egg opening, revealing an expansive future, our minds growing like crystals in solution.  A door closed for so long suddenly opens and the inner sanctum is revealed.  The Butterfly emerging from the Chrysalis.